Bad Habits

Lily's motor skills have just about tripled over the last week. She is now fully crawling (up on all fours), pulling herself up to stand every three seconds, testing letting go with one and sometimes both hands, learning about falling down, taking itty bitty baby steps if you hold her hands, and clapping. She was a hoot at Wiggleworms on Friday. She kept trying to climb up the other babies.

Along with all this movement, I feel like her gaze is more intense. Every single thing I do is seen by these tiny little brown eyes. And I know she's taking it all in and understanding a lot of what's going on around her. This has made me kind of self-conscious. Particularly of my bad habits. Here she is intensely studying the camera as it takes her picture.

I have several, but the one I'm most worried about right now is crossing the street against the light. I strongly believe that if you are an adult, you are capable of judging when it is safe to cross the street regardless of what the stupid little man/hand says. If you mess up, well it's just natural selection. This is absolutely not the case for kids. I have seen more children almost be hit by cars than I can count.

Since I've been walking/running with the stroller, I'm more likely to wait for the light because it takes longer to get across the street. But when there are no cars for blocks in any direction I still feel the pull of jaywalking. I just can't help it. Now that she's watching me more intensely I'm trying even harder to wait. It feels like such a waste of time. I know she won't be crossing any streets for a long while yet, but it might just take me that long to stop doing it.  What do they say, it takes 21 days to form/break a habit? We'll see if I can make it that long.