Back to work

I've been back at work at the bakery for about a month now. It's tiring, but I really enjoy it. 


Right up until I started again I was seriously debating about going back at all. Last summer I NEEDED to work. I needed to feel like something other than a mother. Maybe it was the two weeks plus of 100* temperatures or I don't know what, but I was feeling really trapped. 


This year, not so much. Lily is my little buddy and we have a pretty good time hanging out together. We go places, we do things, we see people, it's all fun. I was worried that if I went back I would be missing out on lots of fun things. But I told myself I couldn't make that decision until I actually went back to see how it felt for a while. 


Turns out I still really like cake decorating. I talked with my boss, though, and I'm only going to work one day a week. Last summer I was working two or three days, and while it was what I wanted it was still pretty tough. Surprisingly, cake decorating is hard work. You're standing in awkward positions, bending down frequently to scoop icing, carrying around 30+ pounds of cake, washing, sweeping, climbing ladders for supplies, and all manner of random things. 


One day a week for this last month has been just perfect. It gets me out of the house and out of mommy-mode. I get to be creative and still spend a ton of time just hanging out with Lily. Every once in a while I think about what my life would be like if I took the museum job instead. And every time I do, I come away knowing that I do not regret my decision even one little bit. Having so much fun and so much free time to enjoy silly things like naps (see later post) make it totally worthwhile. 
I'm looking forward to many days at the beach, impromptu museum trips, and just being outside (once this cold and wind goes away!). Come on summer!